April 2011 Archives

Squashing The Worm Of Self Doubt

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'There's nothing to writing. All you do is sit down at a typewriter and open a vein.'
Walter Wellesley 'Red' Smith

'The worst enemy to creativity is self doubt.'
Sylvia Plath



'Ooh, fiction's so liberating,' some people will tell you. 'Anything can happen.'

Yes, I'd argue. Anything can happen - absolutely ANYTHING. So how does a writer know which is the right 'anything' for their manuscript? Should we go down route A or path B? How do we choose age range, word count or theme? When you're mired in the angst of deciding what your manuscript is about, there are some things you should and should not do.

Push on through
Don't. Just don't. If you feel like banging your head against the desk, it's time to go and annoy yourself with something else.

Over analysis
Scrolling back and forth through a manuscript can be like picking at a scab. 'But what's it all ABOUT!' your mind screams, as panic simmers at the edges of your existence. You don't need to know what the manuscript is about yet - you're not revising for an exam. Don't worry about the big picture. Take your time, get the words on the page, complete a first draft. Themes often emerge of their own free will; you don't have to force the issue. I'd argue that themes are secondary - it's action that counts. You know, people doing stuff, on the page.

Listen to your mother
She always told you to get a good night's sleep, didn't she? She's right. Everything looks better in the morning, but particularly a manuscript. I find that I often dream myself out of problems. That tricky plot point melts away when your sleeping self makes suggestions. I won't suggest that all the writing ideas from your dreamscape are good ones - some of them will seem woefully inadequate in the morning! - but your brain is being left in peace to sort through the rubble and find you gems. A good night's sleep is crucial.

Talk to people
Trying to put your doubts into words can clarify what your doubts are exactly. An innocent question from someone who loves you is worth its weight in gold. 'Have you written a plot outline?' Ummmm, well, they're always so tedious to do. 'Has anyone read it yet?' No, no, I can't share this yet, it's not good enough. And the best question of all: 'Have you been spending too much time on the Internet?' Just don't kill the person doing the asking!

Go back to school
Exam revision techniques can be unexpectedly useful for the writer crawling towards a goal. When you need to focus on the important matter - getting the damn thing written - divide your time into manageable chunks. 30 solid minutes of writing with no email, Twitter, Facebook or Google. Go on, try it. Many writers swear by the Pomodoro Technique. Yes, even creatives need time management (and there's a great app for your iPhone).

Nice Cup of Tea and A Sit Down
If all else fails, do what the British do best and make yourself a brew. A nice calming cup of camomile or perhaps builders' best. It gives you five minutes to calm down, snack on a biccie and go back to your desk with your head sorted.

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My final words of dubious wisdom? Listen to Sylvia Plath. Self doubt really is the enemy of creativity. If we all listened to that writhing worm, no one would get anything done. Take it one step at a time - or 1000 words at a time, as many writers suggest. 1000 words a day over, say, a couple of months and you have yourself a first draft. Two months! Is that all the time it takes to write a novel?! No, I said 'first draft'. Many more drafts will come, but you've done the hard part - you got to THE END. The two most beautiful words in the English language. 

Especially when you once believed you didn't have it in you.




Running and Writing - the same or different?

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Harder than writing a novel?

It's the London Marathon today, which made me hesitate about hitting my usual writing venue of the Royal Festival Hall. Would central London be a nightmare of runners and tourists? I decided to risk all and take the plunge. Not so very bad at all. At breaks in my writing, I'd cast a glance across the brown sludge of the Thames and follow the bobbing heads of people slogging their way around 26 miles in the sunshine. Which of us had the harder day - the writer or the runner? Don't answer that question, I already know the answer.

I've done a bit of running myself, though never achieving more than a half marathon. I know my limits! But even so, this has been a massive accomplishment for me. I inhabit a body born to lie on the sofa, eating chocolate eclairs. Exercise doesn't come easy.

Running has taught me things about myself. It's incredibly hard on several levels - dragging myself out of bed at 6am to go for a run, crawling up stairs on my hands and knees after a half marathon, knowing that one good run means nothing if I don't get out the next time and the time after that... But I've also discovered reserves of determination and focus I didn't know I had, I've cherished early-morning moments of solitude and beauty, and I've made friends. Running has taught me things about myself. To get to the finish line and think, 'I did it! I can do it!' That's a great feeling.

Can the same be said about writing? 

Reserves of determination and focus? Well, there's only one person making me write weekend after weekend when I could be out in the sun. Cherished moments? Nothing beats the lightbulb moment of a new idea sparking. And I've definitely made friends through writing retreats, writing groups and the online community.

Yes, yes, but what have you learned about yourself, Karen? 

  • I've learned an awful lot of self-forgiveness. Writers make a lot of mistakes! You'd better be ready to get over them. 

  • That in the words of 'Finding Nemo' I have the ability to, Keep On Swimming! A stubborn streak serves writers (and runners) well.

  • That the need to write threads through me like the word 'Skegness' in a stick of rock. It's just something I have to do, that I enjoy doing, that satisfies something deep inside me. 

Perhaps running and writing aren't so similair, after all. 

I could live without running, but I can't imagine life without writing.

Congratulations to everyone who took part in the London Marathon!




Just A Few Things On The Go

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What a week! For those of you who don't know, I've joined the organising committee of Undiscovered Voices as the third anthology in a life-changing innovation is launched. Months of preparation peaked on 5 April when the latest panel of judges were introduced to an eager audience of SCBWI members, photo above. I was there to support and report, furiously live tweeting for the first time in my life! My thumbs were sore at the end of all that.

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The day after the launch, a seven-day blog tour began that I'd organised with some incredibly helpful and supportive authors. The first post came from Lucy Coats. Keren David, Anne Cassidy at Crime Central and Tall Tales and Short Stories added their blog thoughts to the tour, and we still have blogs to come from Julia Churchill, Mary Hoffman and myself. 

All this, and a full-time job. What's that other thing I'm meant to be doing? Oh yes, writing! So this weekend I gave myself a stern talking to and sat down at my desk to work on two synopses - one on a commissioned project, one on a new idea. 

I'm so glad I enforced a bit of self-discipline. I'm now brimming with excitement about the new idea and have big things planned. An outline, a research trip, an inspiration scrap book and - oh, I must find myself a 'talisman' after recently being allowed to stroke the piece of marble that Mary Hoffman kept by her side during the writing of her new novel, David

Networking is good and important. Writing is better and more important. Something none of us should forget.

Happy writing, everyone! My work is finished for the day (always leave your desk on a high, say I) and now I'm off to do some knitting...

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Twitter links 

Karen Ball @karenball
Undiscovered Voices @UndiscVoice2012
Lucy Coats @lucycoats
Keren David @kerensd
Mary Hoffman @MARYMHOFFMAN
Tall Tales and Short Stories @TABwrite
Julia Churchill @JuliaChurchill





When Do The Dinner Ladies Need The Hall?

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There were loads of brilliant quotes from yesterday's Children's Writers and Illustrators' Group Conference, but the Two Steves made me laugh with, 'When Do The Dinner Ladies Need The Hall?' This was as part of their talk about school visits and their sage advice for visiting junior schools: the dinner ladies rule. Make sure you know when you need to be out of their way.

Other great quotes?

'The voice of God is speaking to you through me and he's telling you that you're important.'
Tony Bradman on our venue at the St James the Less Church in Pimlico.

'Every school is its own little kingdom.'

'We're in a business.'

'Creativity isn't about Productivity.'

'As human beings we think with stories.'
Frank Cottrell Boyce

Sorry to any speakers who I've failed to credit. (The hall was buzzing and I couldn't always see name tags across the church aisle!)

The conference was stupendous from the moment I arrived. The cheery welcoming noticeboard set the mood:

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The church venue was inspiring. We cracked straight on with a welcome from Gillian Cross, then it was straight into the first panel discussion with Helena Pielichaty and Tony Bradman, chaired by Eleanor Updale. Tony and Helena were there to represent the 'Gloom' and 'Doom' part of the day - a frank look at the challenges in today's marketplace. Tony wisely pointed out that a writer's life has always been challenging - it's just that lots of challenges are coming at the same time in this cycle of publishing. Despite their best attempts, we were left feeling jovial at the end of this session and the style of the day was established as all attendees were actively encouraged to contribute with opinions - and did!

I was thrilled to be invited onto the podium to talk for two minutes only about the launch of the third Undiscovered Voices anthology on 5 April. I'm part of the organising committee this year and was there to encourage established authors to spread the UV word to any up-and-coming authors they know or are mentoring. I had flyers to hand out and everything!

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I had no idea how my presentation was going to go down, but everyone was so supportive and encouraging. Undiscovered Voices is a superb joint innovation by SCBWI and Working Partners to platform unpublished and unagented authors and illustrators but I'll blog about that separately. We had a conference to get on with!

In the afternoon, Anne Cassidy and the Two Steves talked about raising your profile in a discussion chaired by Gillian Cross. All speakers crammed their presentations with information and again, there were excellent contributions from the floor. Some highlights:

Jo Cotterill talked about her great success forking out for button badges, which led to her publisher supplying many more and children around the country now sporting her name and details on their lapels and school bags. In other areas of my life I've seen how much even grown adults love a free pin badge, so this is a suggestion I think all authors should follow. 

Another author mentioned MailChimp - the free email marketing software she uses to send newsletters to contacts - and analyse who's opening and reading her newsletters. 

The Woman's Institute and the Grammar School Associations were both revealed to be sterling supporters for authors looking to promote themselves.

And there was myriad discussion of blogs, YouTube, interactive games, FREE stuff, web conferencing...It's safe to say that our children's author community is embracing the 21st century and winning!

Some of my favourite advice of the day came from Eleanor Updale who encouraged us to take ourselves more seriously. Not to apologise for our existence and sit cowed in a corner as the 'children's author' at a festival, but to treat ourselves as seriously as we'd like the rest of the world to. Great stuff.

Finally, Frank Cottrell Boyce took to the podium. What do I tell you? Everyone needs a Frank Cottrell Boyce in their life. I felt the urge to scribble down his entire speech and hand copies out to people in the street. The warm glow in the church was palpable as he inspired us all to take pride in what we do, remember the important bits and focus on the reason we write at all: for the children whose lives will be changed. We can't predict the future, he told us again and again. Who knows what will be happening in 50 years time? But someone out there will have had their life affected because they read a story. That's a big responsibility. It's also a privilege.

We trailed out into the sunshine streets of Pimlico with beaming faces and lighter hearts. Every speaker present had waived their fees for the day to make this conference affordable for attendees. That's inspiration, handed out gratis. If you want to understand how communities thrive and succeed, you could do worse than attend a CWIG conference. 

Writers don't just inspire with stories, their actions speak loudly too. 

Thank you to everyone involved, but especially Enid.



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Down the road in Tate Britain, this was happening when I popped in. Our audience.