A Writer's Natural Home?
This weekend I had a rare experience of what is generally recognised to be the writer's most dangerous enemy: procrastination.
I'd taken a day off work on Friday to devote to slavish polishing of my manuscript. Like most writers, I have a day job with a limited holiday allowance. So taking a day out of that limited allowance, just to be tied to another desk is not a casual decision. I should have been worked really hard, right? Wrong.
I had a lie in. Then I did a bit of sewing. Then I blogged about my sewing. Then I had lunch, an afternoon doze, and read of a magazine. At 3pm the full horror of a wasted day hit me in the face like a ton of bricks. How did I handle this? With maturity, sobriety and a philosophical shrug of the shoulders? Hmmm. Maybe. Not quite. Nothing like?
Here's a User's Guide to Writer Melt Down:
Facebook
I lunged for my netbook and posted a status update on Facebook that was a thinly disguised plea for reassurance. My writer friends came good and within minutes I was reading stories of other people's utter inability to crack on and knuckle down. Phew! It's not just me then.
Shopping
Rather than drag myself to my desk, I ran out to Walthamstow market. Darting from shop to market stall, my brain fizzing with panic, I spent money. I was doing something, wasn't I? Yes, avoiding.
Texting
I texted my boyfriend with my plight. 'Well, you've had a busy couple of days,' he texted back. Kind, but I would almost have preferred an admonition. After all, I was already flagellating myself.
An avowal to do better
This one worked. All the panic, wasted nervous energy and temptations to bust into tears reminded me how important my mission meant to me. I had a deadline! I couldn't just mess about like this! I returned to my desk bright and early on Saturday morning and worked. And worked, and worked... I spent most of Sunday working, too. There's nothing like a spot of panic to focus the mind.
But I didn't enjoy that experience. It reminded me all too much of being a teenager, gibbering with fear over revision. I'm usually much more controlled than that, control freak that I am. What made me slip up? Who knows. But it's an experience I don't particularly want to repeat.
How do you deal with your moments of procrastination? There must be better techniques than Facebook and shopping. Surely ... aren't there?
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